boy-friend

you. i never know you before. even if we are at the same SHS. we did our life ourselves. i hang out with my classmates, you enjoyed .no hope, that's true. i have finger-counting friend commonly. because i have no intention to step on the wider environment. all of this is enough. how many friends i have doesn't means anything, instead i am a well known student *sigh or i am the most popular girl or i am the most eye caught girl. haha no hope.

i ever had a boyfriend. this phrase means the real, an inter sex friend. i almost shared table with him everyday. and there is no claim or some slang comment from others. and it walked naturally. we shared everything from the glycolysis of human body's metabolism until some "friction" of  gender enforcement. till now, i sincerely remember it. we passed through day by day on a full of joy, competitive atmosphere, and tense. every single time was memorable. he acted like my partner in crime. crime when daily test, i cheated you. you cheated me. activity that never be repeated *i hope in this case :P and he is still my only true partner from those among boys. we promised one day there's a chance we argue each other.

-we walk on the different road of success and happiness-

i missed my friends of CHIRO. they were my mood booster when I'm sick with all of dead-slowly subject material. united we stand, divided we fall" they were unyuuuu :D

i have much to say, but they are so far away

when i couldn't see them anymore, i didn't think there is someone else i can enjoy with. i just have them. in case finding brand new partner. the type of partner that is definitely different. this is a college. no more joking, no more gambling, no more cheating. i realize it.

now i found you. the other boy with different type. and i confirm with different feeling. your attitude means something.

you come all of sudden. just now. and it seems so natural. i think. or i can call "a cosmological coincidence" ? we separate in the different class, from different i have much thinking of you. now, we are so close. in the same stage and road. when you are in my sight, i think i can just have a chit chat with you. and i try to be normal with you. no nervous. no word stake in my tip tongue. but, it doesn't work. you seems a figure that can't touched. not because of you. everything due to my stupid mind. or stupid heart. no idea that i will be in this point. so foolish.

in case of you are disappeared, the presence is just enough. every trace you've made i will remember. and i don't know where mine is ended. deem me as usual.make me over minded to you. that's ok

i have no idea what exactly i wanna explain with those words. this is a Saturday night. and i still hope for the night full of moon and firework. :D